[Ughhh, this conversation is taking turns that she doesn't want it to, painful ones, but she has to, right? They both have to talk about this. Not for Max's or Chloe's sake, but for the sake of their friendship. That little bud they have to nurture and keep alive amid all the terrible things they go through...]
I understand. Really. Leaving you like that... never calling? Barely even texting you, with everything you were going through? And then the storm? I was a terrible friend Chloe. I was a monster to you. And I don't-... I can't even imagine how you could ever fully forgive me for that.
[The fear of it is plain on her face, in her tone.]
I totally understand if you don't trust me. I don't think I've earned it. I don't know if I ever really can anymore.
[She gnaws at her lip again, fingers twisting together anxiously out of view.]
But if I could rewind that far... I would change all of that. I would try to be the friend you deserve, even if I'm... no good at it. I'm trying now.
[For all the good it's done.]
And I promise, I promise I'll try to be here for you, for as long as you want me to be. And... And if it never gets to the point where you're comfortable being friends with me, then I'll... I don't know what I'll do, but I'll live with it. Somehow. If that's what makes you happy.
[She sniffs, lets out a shaky breath. Just like Chloe, she rubs furiously at her cheeks too. Though a small, wavering laugh escapes her.]
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Date: 2019-09-23 02:24 am (UTC)[Ughhh, this conversation is taking turns that she doesn't want it to, painful ones, but she has to, right? They both have to talk about this. Not for Max's or Chloe's sake, but for the sake of their friendship. That little bud they have to nurture and keep alive amid all the terrible things they go through...]
I understand. Really. Leaving you like that... never calling? Barely even texting you, with everything you were going through? And then the storm? I was a terrible friend Chloe. I was a monster to you. And I don't-... I can't even imagine how you could ever fully forgive me for that.
[The fear of it is plain on her face, in her tone.]
I totally understand if you don't trust me. I don't think I've earned it. I don't know if I ever really can anymore.
[She gnaws at her lip again, fingers twisting together anxiously out of view.]
But if I could rewind that far... I would change all of that. I would try to be the friend you deserve, even if I'm... no good at it. I'm trying now.
[For all the good it's done.]
And I promise, I promise I'll try to be here for you, for as long as you want me to be. And... And if it never gets to the point where you're comfortable being friends with me, then I'll... I don't know what I'll do, but I'll live with it. Somehow. If that's what makes you happy.
[She sniffs, lets out a shaky breath. Just like Chloe, she rubs furiously at her cheeks too. Though a small, wavering laugh escapes her.]
It was a scale of one to five, silly.