I don't want to move on. [She's quick to reassure Chloe on this - in fact she grabs her hand tightly.] I'm not warning you that it's happening. I don't even know if I can. Or if I even have a choice. It's just... so difficult. [She lets out a huff, releasing a breath she didn't know she was holding. This all makes her feel so exposed, so vulnerable. Her feelings completely laid bare for Chloe to look over and do whatever she wants to. But she has to push on...] I'll be here, Chloe.
[She squeezes.]
And if you need me, messed up or not, angry or numb or not, I'll always be here. I understand what it's like. It's not like- I'm not exactly better either, after... after the storm, and Wonderland, and-... but I'm here. [She shakes her head.] Not as an outlet. As a friend. I mean it - I want to help. To help you feel better.
[There's a sincere earnestness in her voice that calms somewhat as she goes on.]
And I know it was the Glass, and everything was so screwed up, even me. It was crazy, Chloe, but... I mean, I wanted to... to be with you that night because I already did deep down. [It's her turn to ask a question, right? Is that how this works?] And I wonder if, deep down, you...? Like... have you- have you done anything since, uh... since then?
[Definitely looking away again. Bracing herself for either a lot of relief or a lot of hurt.]
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Date: 2019-03-21 03:29 am (UTC)[She squeezes.]
And if you need me, messed up or not, angry or numb or not, I'll always be here. I understand what it's like. It's not like- I'm not exactly better either, after... after the storm, and Wonderland, and-... but I'm here. [She shakes her head.] Not as an outlet. As a friend. I mean it - I want to help. To help you feel better.
[There's a sincere earnestness in her voice that calms somewhat as she goes on.]
And I know it was the Glass, and everything was so screwed up, even me. It was crazy, Chloe, but... I mean, I wanted to... to be with you that night because I already did deep down. [It's her turn to ask a question, right? Is that how this works?] And I wonder if, deep down, you...? Like... have you- have you done anything since, uh... since then?
[Definitely looking away again. Bracing herself for either a lot of relief or a lot of hurt.]