Max Caulfield

I didn't say that. I - I'm not making excuses, I get what he did was awful, but... But Rachel was an accident, right? An overdose... And he never meant to pull the trigger on me. He had - his head, it was - it was fucked up, and he heard shit. I heard a doctor talking to his dad once, talking about how he has these voices in his head, and - and that's...

[ She waivers slightly, her voice shaking as she trails off. ]

I went a whole year without ever hurting anyone. I almost did before, but I - I was able to fight it. Why - Why couldn't I fight it this time?