[So it wasn't just the Glass, then. Which was... expected, if she's being honest. And they seem to be all about honesty right now.
It's a good thing she's braced herself for it. There's a huge flood of emotion that washes through her - it's not jealousy or anger or even just sadness. She's not sure what it is. But it shows itself only in the small nod of her head, her downcast eyes. Everything seems to be coming through a haze - and her chest feels tight. Her mouth feels dry and Chloe's hand no longer feels warm in hers, but...
But it was expected.
Everything is very quiet. It takes her a few moments to speak.]
It's okay. Really.
[Really.]
I guess I just needed to know for sure.
[And now that she does, maybe things will change. Maybe everything will seem less like betrayal and more like... like bad luck. Which is the truth of it, anyway.
Maybe she can just learn to accept that her and Chloe in Wonderland was a fluke that might not ever happen again. Wonderland was probably an appropriate place for that sort of blissful fantasy.
Maybe Chloe will never be ready for that.
Maybe the memories of it will just get left behind.]
And it's... it's not actually a big deal. Compared to other things. [Her attempt to brush it off is well-meaning, if not entirely sincere. Her eyes are damp.]
Maybe- maybe someday we'll figure out why the storm happened. And maybe someday I'll tell you about Wonderland. [She's never really talked about it before, even when she was there. Just like how she's never talked about Vira-Lorr dying in the sinkhole.
Just like how Chloe hasn't told her about the sinkhole ether. Damn her Mirror and her timing.
But she leans forward, trying to pull Chloe into a hug.]
I guess this is what my Mirror wanted. What I wanted... Actually talking about things.
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Date: 2019-03-21 05:16 am (UTC)It's a good thing she's braced herself for it. There's a huge flood of emotion that washes through her - it's not jealousy or anger or even just sadness. She's not sure what it is. But it shows itself only in the small nod of her head, her downcast eyes. Everything seems to be coming through a haze - and her chest feels tight. Her mouth feels dry and Chloe's hand no longer feels warm in hers, but...
But it was expected.
Everything is very quiet. It takes her a few moments to speak.]
It's okay. Really.
[Really.]
I guess I just needed to know for sure.
[And now that she does, maybe things will change. Maybe everything will seem less like betrayal and more like... like bad luck. Which is the truth of it, anyway.
Maybe she can just learn to accept that her and Chloe in Wonderland was a fluke that might not ever happen again. Wonderland was probably an appropriate place for that sort of blissful fantasy.
Maybe Chloe will never be ready for that.
Maybe the memories of it will just get left behind.]
And it's... it's not actually a big deal. Compared to other things. [Her attempt to brush it off is well-meaning, if not entirely sincere. Her eyes are damp.]
Maybe- maybe someday we'll figure out why the storm happened. And maybe someday I'll tell you about Wonderland. [She's never really talked about it before, even when she was there. Just like how she's never talked about Vira-Lorr dying in the sinkhole.
Just like how Chloe hasn't told her about the sinkhole ether. Damn her Mirror and her timing.
But she leans forward, trying to pull Chloe into a hug.]
I guess this is what my Mirror wanted. What I wanted... Actually talking about things.