[She feels like she's been slapped. Like Chloe tricked her with the word love, bringing her up for just a moment before throwing her back down.
Guilt?
How dare she. How dare she use that against her.]
I have tried so hard to make you happy... I've...
[This wouldn't hurt so much if it wasn't a little true. And it hurts so much more to be realizing it for the first time. Realizing how much she deserves this.]
You know what, Chloe? [Her voice is sharper now, hiding hurt behind bitterness.] You're right. I'm a shitty friend. I'm- I'm selfish, and... and we don't even know how to be friends anymore! So yes - yes, I think Rachel would have done a better job. And I'm fucking sorry you're stuck with me. I know y-you want to believe in me... but I traded you! I'm the reason you can't go home! Don't you get that?
[Nothing to go home to. Chloe's whole life now will be Deerington and its nightmares, until the town decides to end her.]
You "loving" me isn't something that should have ever happened, Chloe. Not here. Not in Wonderland. Not in Arcadia Bay. It always ends up the same way.
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Date: 2019-08-17 01:36 am (UTC)[She feels like she's been slapped. Like Chloe tricked her with the word love, bringing her up for just a moment before throwing her back down.
Guilt?
How dare she. How dare she use that against her.]
I have tried so hard to make you happy... I've...
[This wouldn't hurt so much if it wasn't a little true. And it hurts so much more to be realizing it for the first time. Realizing how much she deserves this.]
You know what, Chloe? [Her voice is sharper now, hiding hurt behind bitterness.] You're right. I'm a shitty friend. I'm- I'm selfish, and... and we don't even know how to be friends anymore! So yes - yes, I think Rachel would have done a better job. And I'm fucking sorry you're stuck with me. I know y-you want to believe in me... but I traded you! I'm the reason you can't go home! Don't you get that?
[Nothing to go home to. Chloe's whole life now will be Deerington and its nightmares, until the town decides to end her.]
You "loving" me isn't something that should have ever happened, Chloe. Not here. Not in Wonderland. Not in Arcadia Bay. It always ends up the same way.
[Doesn't Chloe understand that?]