Yes. After a while, I think she became too jaded to want to open herself up to the threat of losing anyone else, so she's limited how much she lets others in these days.
[ There's some silence for a bit because Moira wasn't expecting this kind of emotionally deep question okay. She was just supposed to make sure Max wasn't super fucked up, how did this happen????? She has regrets.
But she also doesn't believe in bullshitting people who haven't been assholes to her, so here we are. ]
While on a logical level I understand her reasoning and have taken the approach of limiting my contact with others in order to preserve my own emotional states since I was young, I don't think it's a healthy approach for Angela. She isn't like me. She cares deeply, loves with her whole heart, wants the best for the world. Seeing this place take that from her has been difficult.
But I believe she is capable of making her own decisions, even if I don't think they are the best for her.
She isn't like me. Angela has never been one who wishes to be alone. Where I feel drained by the presence of others, she feels lifted. She's always craved affection, perhaps to make up for what she little she had before Overwatch, and she has always reached out to others, wanted to help them, to heal them, to comfort them.
Shutting people out is not in her nature and does her emotional harm, not preservation.
While it may likely not be my place to offer advice... Do not lot your preference for keeping people at bay ultimately leave you isolated. Particularly in a place like this, it will become dangerous to be completely alone.
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Date: 2019-07-24 09:18 pm (UTC)Sorry for the delay!
Date: 2019-07-29 04:36 pm (UTC)...Or not.
[She would be excited about that joke in another time, but right now it's entirely flat to her. And probably to Moira too, let's be real.]
The list of people she cares about is probably kind of long, huh?
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Date: 2019-08-09 07:17 pm (UTC)It's gotten far shorter over the year we've been here.
don't sweat it!
Date: 2019-08-11 03:20 pm (UTC)...Because people have left?
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Date: 2019-08-19 04:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-08-22 03:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-08-22 06:52 pm (UTC)But she also doesn't believe in bullshitting people who haven't been assholes to her, so here we are. ]
While on a logical level I understand her reasoning and have taken the approach of limiting my contact with others in order to preserve my own emotional states since I was young, I don't think it's a healthy approach for Angela. She isn't like me. She cares deeply, loves with her whole heart, wants the best for the world. Seeing this place take that from her has been difficult.
But I believe she is capable of making her own decisions, even if I don't think they are the best for her.
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Date: 2019-08-27 03:54 pm (UTC)...it's sad right? like deerington winning.
angela's one of the best people i know. i dunno what id do without her here.
[Max and Chloe would probably be dead several times over.]
but you dont think she could be like you? "limit contact to preserve her emotional state"? maybe that IS whats best for her.
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Date: 2019-08-28 03:05 am (UTC)She isn't like me. Angela has never been one who wishes to be alone. Where I feel drained by the presence of others, she feels lifted. She's always craved affection, perhaps to make up for what she little she had before Overwatch, and she has always reached out to others, wanted to help them, to heal them, to comfort them.
Shutting people out is not in her nature and does her emotional harm, not preservation.
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Date: 2019-08-29 01:12 pm (UTC)You know what's funny? i think i'm more like you than angela.
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Date: 2019-08-29 11:18 pm (UTC)I imagine only in this particular case.
While it may likely not be my place to offer advice... Do not lot your preference for keeping people at bay ultimately leave you isolated. Particularly in a place like this, it will become dangerous to be completely alone.
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Date: 2019-08-30 05:10 pm (UTC)Well... maybe i'll just keep a very short list. Like you.
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Date: 2019-08-31 02:19 am (UTC)... I'm terrible company. I think we discussed this already.
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Date: 2019-09-01 02:54 am (UTC)...I meant keep a short list like you do. But yeah you're definitely on there too!
[Is Max amused? Just a tiny, tiny bit. And feeling a little better than she has in days.]
Really, you are. ^_^
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Date: 2019-09-01 03:27 am (UTC)You were correct in your original list to not have me on there, do not add me due to miscommunication.
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Date: 2019-09-01 03:37 am (UTC)oh man way too late to change anything now Moira. you're on there for life.
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Date: 2019-09-01 03:55 am (UTC)... Nevermind. She's done a lot to deserve this. ]
Remind me to never check in on anyone ever again.
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Date: 2019-09-01 03:58 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-09-01 04:22 am (UTC)😒