[Oh man, right, she was upset. Max has been so caught up in the memory of the Dome that she forgot the aftermath of it... and the way she talked to Vira-Lorr. She's cringing hard and she's glad this isn't on video.]
You are way too nice. Not that I'm complaining. It's just hard to feel like I deserve it... but I'll try, Vira-Lorr. If that's really what you want.....
Also, feel free to slap me the next time I start acting like that.
Both of us. I think things are really starting to take a toll on her. A lot worse than before...
I hurt her in the dome. A lot, Vira-Lorr. Maybe too much. I don't know. And it's not just me she lost for a while.
I'm not really as nice as I sound. I just know that, if we allow ourselves to always blame each other and ourselves, we will end up wrecks. And, besides. It is much easier to forgive someone if you don't want to be angry at them.
I have a few tricks up my sleeve, don't you worry. Most of them even work finally. If you lose your mind again, I will try to protect you from yourself if I can.
I see. She gets like this, doesn't she? when she loses someone important to her? Is there anything I can do to help?
I fear that may be a tall order, and that's probably part of the problem. I have no intentions of adding to her worries there again, but I can't promise her not to die when I know better than to assume. I will promise to use everything I can to stay safe and to keep others safe around me. The two of you included. I won't lie. she'd probably see through that lie right now.
You're going to be a physical wreck for a week or so, but afterwards if you need a moment of rest, call me. The emotional stress is getting to all of us, and Susan's lovely company but she really isn't much of a conversationalist. I would not say no to the company.
she would. I dont know how to make all of this better anymore. things just get worse all the time. like some downward spiral into darkness. and she knows it...
[Maybe that's the flu speaking, maybe it's Max's own dark thoughts after her death. But Deerington seems like an inescapable hell right now.]
i wouldnt say no either. ngl, im hella introverted but i dont think id mind some company. i'll let you know. :)
Sometimes it feels that way, but I still have hope. there's progress in other things, no matter how bad it seems at times. But right now, it might not feel like it.
Give me a call if you need more soup, and if I haven't heard from you in a week or so, I'll send a search party to batter your door down.
[She was content to let the conversation stop there. There was a lot of things that weren't going to be easy to talk about in her current physical state, and with Chloe this much of a wreck it wasn't going to get easier, so she wanted to let Max rest at least for the moment.]
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Date: 2019-09-02 04:18 pm (UTC)You are way too nice. Not that I'm complaining. It's just hard to feel like I deserve it... but I'll try, Vira-Lorr. If that's really what you want.....
Also, feel free to slap me the next time I start acting like that.
Both of us. I think things are really starting to take a toll on her. A lot worse than before...
I hurt her in the dome. A lot, Vira-Lorr. Maybe too much. I don't know. And it's not just me she lost for a while.
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Date: 2019-09-02 04:44 pm (UTC)I have a few tricks up my sleeve, don't you worry. Most of them even work finally. If you lose your mind again, I will try to protect you from yourself if I can.
I see. She gets like this, doesn't she? when she loses someone important to her? Is there anything I can do to help?
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Date: 2019-09-03 01:24 pm (UTC)yeah, she does... i honestly don't know, Vira-Lorr. if I knew how to help her, that's what I'd be doing.
...everyone not dying is a good start though.
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Date: 2019-09-03 07:07 pm (UTC)You're going to be a physical wreck for a week or so, but afterwards if you need a moment of rest, call me. The emotional stress is getting to all of us, and Susan's lovely company but she really isn't much of a conversationalist. I would not say no to the company.
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Date: 2019-09-10 06:11 pm (UTC)[Maybe that's the flu speaking, maybe it's Max's own dark thoughts after her death. But Deerington seems like an inescapable hell right now.]
i wouldnt say no either. ngl, im hella introverted but i dont think id mind some company. i'll let you know. :)
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Date: 2019-09-10 07:20 pm (UTC)Give me a call if you need more soup, and if I haven't heard from you in a week or so, I'll send a search party to batter your door down.
[She was content to let the conversation stop there. There was a lot of things that weren't going to be easy to talk about in her current physical state, and with Chloe this much of a wreck it wasn't going to get easier, so she wanted to let Max rest at least for the moment.]
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Date: 2019-09-15 03:23 pm (UTC)thank you. for everything. for understanding.