[Yep, an actual video game. She smiled as the girl reacted that way, reaching over to pat her on the back of the hand. Wait, wasn't Max trying to console her right there? Oh well, it worked in her mind.]
Don't worry. I know that, I do. Gwen and I talked about things like that. Our worlds touch. We dream of each other, and for one it is a fantasy, for another real.
But, [She smiled at her a little wanly, distantly.] I'm glad that I don't have to explain that to you. You do understand. It was my life.
It is positively delightful isn't it? [She giggled.] Yes, that Gwen. She seems to have a knack for understanding these kinds of things very well, honestly.
And... no, my life wasn't awful, not in the same way. It was much more complicated and meaningful. It's my little way of keeping the few who know from looking too hard.
It's hard sometimes, to see glimpses of each other's life, and not be sure what you should share, what you should talk about. It's nice to get to know each other more. [temptation to touch Max's hand was high, but she held off. This was a good moment.]
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Date: 2019-12-11 03:51 am (UTC)[It's an actual game? An actual video game? While she's heard of things like this before, to run into it face first like this... and so tactlessly...
Max's tone is a mix of shame and disbelief.]
I'm sorry. I didn't mean it literally.
[Max pokes idly at her own cup of ice cream, unsure of how to go on.]
It doesn't make what you experienced any less real, you know. It doesn't make it any less terrifying or valid.
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Date: 2019-12-11 04:02 am (UTC)Don't worry. I know that, I do. Gwen and I talked about things like that. Our worlds touch. We dream of each other, and for one it is a fantasy, for another real.
But, [She smiled at her a little wanly, distantly.] I'm glad that I don't have to explain that to you. You do understand. It was my life.
...
The game's awful.
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Date: 2019-12-11 04:40 am (UTC)[So far Max's interactions with Gwen have been on the better end, and she holds the girl in good regard.
Max grimaces at that comment.]
That doesn't mean your life was awful.
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Date: 2019-12-12 03:01 am (UTC)And... no, my life wasn't awful, not in the same way. It was much more complicated and meaningful. It's my little way of keeping the few who know from looking too hard.
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Date: 2019-12-15 02:24 pm (UTC)[A smile. She's certainly grateful for the distraction from the complexities of her own life.]
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Date: 2019-12-17 12:44 am (UTC)Thank you for being understanding.
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Date: 2019-12-17 03:36 am (UTC)Thanks for being so open about it. It can't be easy.